A Different Approach.

SUNDAY.
Went to the Car Boot. Painful experience, but needed to try.
Visited friends, but it did nothing to lift the gloomy mood.
Went out for dinner.
Watched 'Rambo' on DVD. A good violent no brainer.
Won the Pub Quiz..

Pain 7/10
Anxiety 7/10
Panic Attacks 2
Items dropped 1

MONDAY.
Took the Wife and Mother In Law shopping.
Watched 'Angels and Demons' on DVD. A good yarn but silly.
Lost 74-72 to Clifford Arms in Quiz League.

Pain 7/10
Anxiety 7/10
Panic Attacks 2
Items dropped 1

TUESDAY.
Visited parents.
Fatigue lasted most of the Afternoon/Evening.

Pain 7/10
Anxiety 7/10
Panic Attacks 2
Items dropped 2

WEDNESDAY.
Post medication side effects horrific. Fatigue.

Pain 7/10
Anxiety 7/10
Panic Attacks 3
Items dropped 2

THURSDAY.
Fatigue terrible. Pain unbearable.
Watched 'Hawaii 5 0' on Sky.

Pain 9/10
Anxiety 7/10
Panic Attacks 2
Items dropped 1

FRIDAY.
Visited parents.
Drove Dad's new car.
Watched 'Benidorm' on ITV.

Pain 8/10
Anxiety 7/10
Panic Attacks 2
Items dropped 4

SATURDAY.
Fatigue.
Started to watch 'Wanted' on ITV.

Pain 8/10
Anxiety 7/10
Panic Attacks 3
Items dropped 2

SUNDAY.
Went to the Car Boot. Painful.
Visited Parents. Gave a card and present to Mom.
Visited friends but full of gloom.
Had Mother In Law round for Dinner.
Had a massive panic attack.

Pain 8/10
Anxiety 10/10
Panic Attacks 3 ( 1 was off the HADS)
Items dropped 2

There. Another week trying to cope with crippling Arthritis, Anxiety and Depression, and all the other Illnesses and side effects that come with it. I am really not sure if my quality of life is a life worth living.
This person i.e Me. Will self destruct in 8 Seconds.

A Visit to Ikea.

Saw 'Red Nose Day' on 'BBC1' last Friday. Borrowed 'Mass Effect 2' from my mates, but not enjoying the game much. Monday saw a visit to 'Morrison's', followed by a meeting with an old chum of mine in 'Lichfield'. A bit knackering, but not too bad.

Won the Quiz League match against champions 'Sports and Social' 69-64 in the knockout competition, thanks to us having an Eleven point start in the new handicapping experiment. My pain was bad on Tuesday, and the Fatigue was a concern. Wednesday was a trip to 'Ikea' with my Mother In Law. Knocked me about a bit, but it was something of a change. Hav'nt really done much else. My pain is just as bad, and the Fatigue seems to occur more often. I have also had some Panic Attacks, and lots of Anxiety.

Life is but a dream.

The 'Quiz League' ended with a score of 'Park Gate' 58, 'Bank House B' 42. That means the 'Sports And Social' won the league with us finishing 5th with the stats Played 14 Won 7 Lost 7. Our regular announcer was unavailable, so I read out the questions. We now go into the 'Knockout cup' which used to be just that a Knockout. The organiser has however come up with a Two group format with the top in each group going through to the final. We are in 'Div 1' with the top Three teams in what was supposed to be a random draw. Each plays each other Once, so we are at home versus league champs 'Sports And Social', followed by away trips to 'Clifford Arms' and 'Bank House A'. The controversy does'nt end there. The organiser has come up with a handicapping system based on average scores to try and even things up. If it goes ahead, we will have an Eleven point start against 'Sports and Social' and 'Clifford Arms', and a Three Point start against 'Bank House A'. Some teams have already vented there concern at the proposals, with 'Bank House B' who although finishing bottom in the league,and getting a Twenty Three point start, saying they would rather it be  straightforward matches. Watched 'Inception' on 'DVD'. An original concept about entering dreams to find out different information. Confusing at times, but still good. A nice plot device is that each person who enters the dreams uses an object only known to them to see if they are back to reality. 'Leaonardo De Caprio' uses a metal spinning top which keeps spinning when in a dream, but falls when in reality. In the end, we see him wake up and visit his family, but as he spins his top, the film ends just before you know if it will fall.

My medication has caused lots of side effect problems again this week, and I have had Three panic attacks within Ten minutes today. It is more difficult to struggle through each time and I wonder how much more pain and anxiety I can put up with.

Cowabunga.

A trip to the hospital on Friday saw me bieng measured up for 'Thumb Spikes', which will be ready in a few weeks. Watched 'Benidorm', but it only raised a few chuckles. Got 'Alien v Predator' on 'PS3', and have completed the game playing as a 'Marine'.

To complete the game. you have to play as an 'Alien' and a 'Predator', but this might take a while as I have to ration my playing because of my Arthritic hands. The graphics are slightly below par, and any difficulty higher than easy would make it hard to finish.

Watched 'Stoke v West Ham' on 'ITV' before watching 'TMNT' on 'Channel 5'. The problem with the film is that it is so juvenile in its projection, that anybody over 8 would find it boring. Even the computer animation switches from good to average as the plot progresses, and any jokes are handled badly. The Sunday quiz was won by us in an unusualy low scoring affair.

X Ray marks the spot.

A meeting with my specialist revealed that there is no improvement in my condition. I will have to have a few jabs to try and keep it at a reasonable level, and keep taking my usual medication as normal. Going to be fitted with Thumb supports on Friday, as my hands are getting too painful.

Won our Quiz League game against 'Ye Old Dun Cow' 74-63, so go into the last game with a chance of finishing Fourth, but could still be Fifth or Sixth depending on the result. Have felt crap for most of the week, with a combination of pain,anxiety, and medication side effects.

Troubled minds.

The pain and anxiety just don't let up at the moment, causing too many problems. Watched 'Benidorm' on 'ITV', and found some of the jokes amusing. The series has always seemed to rely on a bit of barrel scraping to get it through to this far, and the new series is no different. With a few new characters added, it still struggles at times to raise the intended laughs. It did however have a few 'Viz' type jokes this week, which at least were funny.

The mighty 'Drinks Cabinet' entered a 'Macmillan Cancer Quiz' on Saturday night at Burntwood Rugby Club. I was'nt really up to going, but made the effort. The room was so full, that they had to set up an extra table and chairs just for us. They charged £10 per team, and £5 for raffle tickets, making about £580 for charity. The Quiz was not bad, and we came Second out of 16 teams with 69 points. The raffle had some nice prizes, with Roger from our team winning a pass for 'Weston Park'.

Lamb to the slaughter.

After travelling to 'Lamb and Flag', and losing 69-63. Our best position in the league can now only be 4th. The viewing has been sparce, but managed to see 'X Files I want to Believe' on 'Film 4'. I have never seen it at the 'Cinema' or on 'DVD', so it was a 'Premiere' for me. The plot about a phsycic who traces missing agents, and leads to a 'Frankenstien' like experiment, moves along nicely. It feels like a better episode of the series rather than a completely new concept, and is helped by the return of some familiar characters. Despite the morose nature of the proceedings. The script still has a sense of humour with witty dialogue throughout.
Anxiety is still occuring at frequent intervals, and the pain is horrible. Will I ever feel normal?.